It Doesn't Matter

I missed seeing in the morning

I missed you saying good morning

I missed loving you more and more every morning

I don't want to be without it

You want my love and I know it

It's witten in your face don't hide it

If you're looking you can find it.

But no matter how bad I want it

From me stay close, If you really want it

And now you got me acting like I didn't know you

But I can only tell you what I want to show you

Now I'm sitting lonely in this empty house

without you, all I got is these memories

If I can only see your face I will apologize

But I heard you'r with someone that treats you better

But why I still dreaming about me and you together 
                                                                                                                       
I even thought that you are going to be with me forever

But how did I get here I don't even remember

Why I'm saying this when it doesn't even matter

Because I'm so sick and tired of staying alone

I tell you just to pray for me and move on

You made me live a dream and now you'r gone

    Why is this happening  my moon 

 I just want my heart back so I can go on 

mybe I can be with you in another life 

What you mean to me no one can have

 So why is this keep happening to me my love

because all I want to you to be is my wife    

Gothic

Bless or Curse

Bless or Curse

              Pretty and mysterious, calme and puzzled, lovely but hard to understand, clear but I cannot read it, it seems too close, but it is hard to reach, it is the moon that appears in the middle of the day, it is the light that burned my darkness, it is the doctor that the patient needs, a grace, a bless, it smels like heaven, a melody that made me addicted, addicted and I cannot get enough from it, an angle that I could not see till now, and me! I love it, I 'm telling that without a doubt,  yes I do, and I always tried to show the opposite, always to ignore it, and get closer from the enemy, but why? maybe because I'm afraid, but from what, from the hurt! from from the fire that is eating me from the inside, I love it and with it my minde is dead and I dont know what kind of things I say, yes! it exist, I know that but a voise inside me is telling me "not for you ", what to do ?? I'm confused!!  at first sight I thought that it is my chance to recover, to born again with it, but this is not what I have planned it is out of my control, so what to do?? So many things is being unsaid I have tried to complain but it made me seen as a fool, is it realy made for me, or I'm delusion, lying to my self that's what I have been, enough, enough, but wait I 'm not the only one who want it, so what to do?? it feels like a curse like a prison but I want it for me, I don not want to share it, but what if I can't live without it, what kind of sorcery is that? maybe it is something in it moves, I 'm tumbling down, what to do? but why not any thing else?  just it just it maybe simly because it is the piece that it is missing in my heart, and all I want to do is proofing that I deserve it, but it 's like the wrong that feels right, how to figure out that,  I wish it was not this way, I don't  want  trade my life for this, or to holding on to what I haven't got, I need to start over even I know that "the hardest part of ending is starting again" so it 's over, the filme ends here, I wish I had strength to stand, I need just to know that it will never be the one who is going to find themselves alone, no!! it will never be the one to bear the scars that it cause, but only if it wants too, then I will do any thing to please it, only if that can happen, only if.

                                                                   By nedjmo