I'm a Diver

I'm a Diver

               I  had the chance once to dive to crose the ocean to see it wonders  to see the beautiful colors mixed together to make  a wonderful views. The view of the searoks coverd by the nearly magic seaweeds that ends by the shining send,  it took it shine from the the sun ray reflaction.That was a special moments. I was moving very smoothly with the current, and the bubbles were coming out of me like they were jellyfishes, climbing up to the surface, I had seen a lot till I became very exhausted, and I didn't want to come out, so I had this brilliant idea it is to take the rest insid the sea so I laid on my back, and closed my eyes. In the same time I start meditate, I think I didn't understand in the beginnig but I think I do now, I think I have realised how small I'm comparing this world,  suddenly I heard a weird  sound I was terrify,  I looked to the right and the left but there was nothing  was there, oh!!  it's my oxygen tank, it's almost end "My God !!" I felt frustrate, but dispit that feeling, I had some kind of happiness behind it because  that what made that moment so spicial,  just thinking that there is a lot more to see made me happy. I pushed with my flipper the water to came out, I almost get out, I can see the sun ray on the surface, then suddenly, I couldn't move  every thing around me start melting  untill every thing disappeared and me I was standing in the dark, I am in  my divig suit "Am I dead"  thoughts were spinning in my head, after a moment I woke up "I am in my bed!! bu but what happend to all what I have seen? all what I  have felt ? just a dream"  I couldn't accept it first, but now I guess that because of it  I have  realised the gift from our God that it maybe the last one we would thank him for it is the power of imagination it can take you to other worlds whil you are in your place .                                                    

Home !!!!

                                                                 Home !!!!

                                        

                    what is home? what does it represent ? I have been asking this  question for a while  and I asked it to a lot of people ,almost  all of them said  the same thing, "Is where I feel comfortable, surrounded by family to"even the dictionory toke it too     simply and difine it "The place where you live" I notice that every answer started with "where"  Is it related to a place? I thought that it is more spiritual than just a place. For me I haven't  realy found a palace that I can call it home yet, I'm moving but I just cant find my way, I'm surrounded by a millon routes  but which one of them can lead me home? To be honest, once I thought that I found it, once I thought that I finally opened this mystery, indeed it was gorgeous from the outside, but when I came in no one was there,  no body was home, and there where I laid down broken inside, but I stuck  with hope and I waited there for someone to come. The time passed but nothing happend, then suddenly, the house start cracking untill it break down and scatter over me and become only a small pieces. Where to go now, this can't be happening to me, I was lost falling behind and no one could see me. Where do I belong ? "Soon it will be over, a new one can make it up for you" they  kept telling me that . Alas!! I dont think so , because it was the only time I thought that I have a real thing .For me, Home is certainly the arms of the beloved .

Save Yourself

                                            Save Yourself                    

          It is so cold I cannot feel my clothes I could not come home ,

I could not come home, there is deception in me and I do not deserve you anymore, no more .

last night it happened again , and I could not stop it untill it began .

             So this time You need to walk out of the door.

It is too deep to search inside of me just like a monster ,the moon sets me free

So before the darkness fills the sky .Before the kindness in me dies ,run, run, run.

Save yourself ,let me drown ,If you stay here we will both go down ,I am sorry my love you will find someone else ,it is too late for me save yourself........

It is  too late I have losted  all control you are not safe my love you must go .